Thursday, September 16, 2010

I have no words.

Its been 2 1/2 weeks since I've blogged and for this I'm sorry. I'm about to explain why. On Wednesday September 1st, I went to my OB because the night before I started spotting. By morning it got heavier. When I got to my OB I peed in a cup and did an ultrasound. On the u/s they didn't find an embryo and then the urine pregnancy test came up negative. They did bloodwork and She told me I would need to come back that Friday for more tests but that she thought I miscarried. Well Wednesday the bleeding just got heavier and heavier but I wasn't filling pads, Thursday it slowed down. and By Friday it was over. I went back to the OB Friday morning September 3rd. She did another urine pregnancy test which again came out negative. She told me my pregnancy hormones were VERY low and had gone down to 100. I miscarried. Worst week of my life so far. and two days later was my birthday. Yeah. What a great birthday present.
My husband made the best of my birthday though and I had a pretty good birthday. I asked my OB about trying again, when it was safe, if she thought this meant I couldnt carry or what. She said I was healthy that she believed it was just a first pregnancy miscarriage and that we should be able to concieve again as soon as we're ready. So we will  try again and we will have a baby, one way or another. Losing a baby is definately not easy. It's the worst thing to go through. But God doesn't give you more than you can handle.

The other reason I've been MIA is because Our laptop got a virus. Beware Everyone of this Virus, specially if your on facebook ALOT. It'll look like a popup. an Antivirus popup. If this happens to you Immediately turn off your computer. Because it'll automatically install this Fake antivirus. You can't do anything, even if you click on the Red X, it'll automatically install and won't let you uninstall it. Luckily we fought this virus. We fought HARD and we won. 

So I'm sorry for being gone. Monday I will start back on Day 3 of 30 Days of me and Tomorrow I will be participating in Milspouse Friday Fill-In.

Mrs. D


  1. So sorry for you loss. I know that there are no words that are able to comfort you right now. I promise it gets better though.

  2. I am so, so sorry. I have been there and it is one of the worst feelings I have ever had. The pain does get better, but it never goes away.